*Trigger warning - pregnancy and loss.
I've had my first session with my therapist, though it was just filling her in on my history.. I'm not sure I really understand how it's going to work or our sessions unfold - we start in a couple of days.
I'm a little scared that I might start unpacking things and blow my life up in the meantime. I'd really like to understand if it really helps and you don't get thrown back into a trauma loop... Ending up worse off than you were before.
I'm currently pregnant (6th pregnancy - 1 living child, 1 passed shortly after birth, 4 MC's) I'm trying to face trauma associated with this due to extreme anxiety/ post natal anxiety/ feeling like I'm living in fight or flight mode. Challenging upbringing etc.
I have a pocket of time I have lost from the passing of my daughter (waking up from surgery/ being told etc). I'm really scared of getting these memories back. I feel like it's self preservation that I don't remember. My therapist said it's likely that this will return.. I feel like this might be too much.. but I also want to heal. Has anyone faced their traumatic experiences and was able to process and move past it..