anniversary coming up 23nb 21m
Hello.
I want to preface by saying that I’m kind of lost so bear with me as I word this. My long-distance partner 23NB and I 21M have been together nearing on four years. Nearing. We’ve been arguing lately, and we’re on a break that includes no-contact. But I still want to do something nice for them for our anniversary and I don’t know how to go about it without seeming odd. I’ll be honest, I’m not too sure how I feel about talking to them lately because of how neglectful and defensive they get when it comes to me expressing myself and the last time was a whopper for me. And since no contact started four days ago, I’ve been super paranoid due to certain behaviours that have been popping up but I have also just been getting on with life. Unfortunately, for me it would just- idk. Be horrible if I didn’t commemorate our anniversary.
I feel so torn. It is honestly quite annoying with how much this has been occupying my thoughts when I have things I need to focus on aha. I just don’t want to seem desperate. Or gross. Or clingy. But it’s important. Help??