I got a OWI on St Pattys day (like an idiot) and I blew very high. I’m currently waiting to hear what my repercussions will be. Talking to my lawyer it’s likely probabtion for a year, driving suspended for 6-12 months and likely alcohol classes or IOP. Around this same time I lost my insurance so I’m scared of being able to pay for it. The cherry on top of it all is I was parked right in front of the bar that apparently everyone I knew was there that night. The cops were waiting in the lot across the street looking for people getting into their vehicles. I don’t think I got more than 10 feet before they were behind me. I can deal with the repercussions but the what ifs and shame is what’s giving me anxiety. Not gonna lie I’m still struggling with drinking especially after this happened which is ironic but it’s hard to deal with and have recently come to terms that I’m an alcoholic. I don’t remember getting into my car that night at all. I can count on one hand the times I have blacked out and that was one of them.
Also though, I was drinking at the bar from 6pm-Midnight and constantly ordering drinks including beer and shots. While owning up to and remaining accountable for my decision making do you guys think bars should be more responsible with over serving people. The town I’m in there’s also atleast a few people in bars who clearly have had too many. I found this ironic long before I got the charge. They kicked me out that night cause I was falling asleep at the bar (perfectly understandable) but all the bartenders and patrons watched me get in my car. Of course it isn’t the bars obligation to take peoples keys or call Ubers or whatever, but I think they could be more mindful of the amount of drinks they serve.
I’m really not trying to say it’s the bars fault or act like a victim. I’m the one who got in the car, I could’ve killed someone or myself that night. Constant what ifs and the way people look at me now haunt me everyday and I continue to drink like an idiot. I don’t know how to stop, it has ruined almost every aspect of my life in the last two years. I hope some people can relate and offer advice on quitting drinking and getting past the guilt and shame.
Sorry I don’t type very well.