So I’ve recently been feeling more energy around me than normal. We’ve moved, lost my job, and just a bunch of other things complied and with all of this energy has just been off. With that being said I was doing research on how to be more inclined with this energy shift and figure out how to make it less of a hassle on my mental state. I found meditation. I was meditating tonight, and honestly I don’t do it often enough, and did two short session. Maybe 5 minutes or less for both. The first one I first felt a calm presence but it gave me goosebumps almost immediately. Then within seconds it felt like my mind was darting from side to side. I told myself I needed to ground myself and started feeling my clothing. Usually grounding yourself makes these feelings less intense so I figured I could do this. Well it made it more intense. Not only was my mind shaking violently side to side but it also started to feel like I was spinning on a center axis. I opened my eyes and back to reality. I gave myself a breather and watched a cute reel on Facebook.
My second short session I repositioned myself into a more comfortable state. I closed my eyes and started focusing on the now. I started to feel a weird feeling, but not like I was moving. My legs and head felt normal, but I could see waves of light coming and going in wavy patterns. Then I felt a tingle in my face. And it moved to the back of my head/neck. Even after grounding myself it was still pretty intense. Then the light was more wavy, and it was getting dark in the center almost like an orb.
I guess I’m just wondering if this is normal? I’ve never had these experiences when meditating and I’m not sure if it means something higher. I’ve always been a spiritual person, feeling energies and such, but this was all a new feeling. I was just thinking about a passed love one, so maybe it was a release of grief? I’m not sure anymore.