It’s been 3 weeks since everything fell apart, and honestly I haven’t been okay since. My sleep is messed up, I’ve barely been eating properly, and my mind just doesn’t feel at peace anymore.
I had a close friend, and somewhere along the way I developed feelings for her. She knew about it. Then we had a huge fight, and after that she blocked me everywhere—Instagram, WhatsApp, Discord. Reddit is the only place left, but she doesn’t really use it.
What hurts the most is that after the fight, she said a lot of things about me publicly that felt humiliating. Despite that, I still can’t seem to hate her. I just keep thinking about the time we spent together and how much I was there for her whenever she needed me.
I think I got really emotionally attached, and now I’m struggling to accept that she doesn’t seem to care anymore.
I don’t know why it’s so hard to let go, or why I keep wishing she would understand how much she meant to me.
Has anyone else gone through something like this? How do you actually move on when you still care this much?