u/Awkward_Ad_3779

all i ever wanted was you to accept me for who i am but you never cared or ever even tried, you are a shitty parent and it's even shittier how you pretend to love and care about me, you have never called by name ever once, you insult me and try to feed to into my bad thoughts about myself, i can't go in public anymore because i'm so afraid of how people see me. no matter how much i tell i'm suffering you don't care and don't listen; if i tell you you are hurting me you don't seem to care at all and even double down and keep saying whatever it is you were. how am i supposed to live my life when you can't accept me, i feel dehumanized, like i'm not even a person anymore. i want to say you've become exactly like your own mother because i know that it would make you upset to think you're just as shitty as grandma was too you, maybe it's not your fault you were such a bad parent, but that's no excuse for you you act for years and years and years straight. i never expected this from you i really didn't i thought things would be so much better we used to be so close closer than anything in the world but i came out to you and you changed on me. i thought you were okay; you were okay you always were okay but now i’ve been brainwashed and i'm delusional and i'm making a mistake and i'm ruining my body, i'm running away from my problems, i'm confused... you actually make me feel like i'm goign fucking crazy. and you don't try i think that's what does it never fucking try, i'm just asking you try to support me just to try to but that's too much, just trying to accept for who i am is simply too much, and that's why i hate you so much because you were one of the most important people to me in my life, but when i was honest about who i was you couldn't accept me, and now i just don't think you are capable of changing how you feel, you haven't even tried yet and its been too long already.