How to get over someone who was your friend in the healthiest possible way, as a girl?
I always have this tune of "Ciggaretes out the window"by TV Girl play in my head and feel slight discomfort in my chest whenever I see my school(11th grade) crush around me during get togethers. We are all in college now btw, and it's been years since school ended. He's my very good friend btw and I had one sided crush on him for like 2 years, but then with time it just faded ig. But I can't explain that if I don't like him now, why does this happen and why do I forget how to act whenever he is around like that's just how my body reacts, I don't think before I act, or overthink like crazy before talking things and end up saying crap. I am not saying i love him like before, as that crush was just a lack of information as i came to know is just as lusty as other guys around me and doesn't give a f abt me. But how do I get over this sudden tightness in my chest? Like whenever I talk to him, it feels like he just gets me, and like I am talking to a version of myself who is self aware and gives really good advices. He knows about this crush thing btw(i told him that i used to like him and don't anymore). But ig you can't keep lying to yourself:) I just feel like I am delusional atp, but idk how to get over it completely.