I 30(f) and my now bf 31(m) have been together for a month now. But we’ve talked for 3 months before.
It was a rough start cause in the beginning it was all cute and lovey but slowly he’d talk to these women no in a flirting way but just giving too much attention to them.
I brought it up and told him that it bothered me and he’d block them off but one girl he gave out his number too and would text her back and forth for a bit. When I found out he felt really bad and then told her sorry I fucked up please delete my number.
Fast forward to now cause of that instant I have trust issues. And I keep bringing up my emotions to him like if he does something and it bothers me I talk to him about it. Sometimes he’s really open about it but then a few other times he starts fighting back with me saying oh it’s a joke, you’re over reacting, you’re blowing this out of proportion, you’re picking fights? But I’m really not I talk to him saying oh you made me feel this way when this happened and he’ responds with ob the tone of your voice is rude and disrespectful and you don’t know how to talk to your boyfriend.
Fast forward to yesterday. I asked him multiple times why he hasn’t posted me on Instagram and he kept laughing it out and playing it cool about it but he told me yesterday saying oh I didn’t think we were going to last that’s why I didn’t. And it took me by surprise cause everytime we fight he’s been suggesting we break up and I keep telling him that it’s just a misunderstanding it’s a fight we’ll figure it out, cause I was under the impression no matter what fight it is we can sort it out. So when he told me it hit me like a hit and run car and I’m like wtf? And after that it just got into a worse fight just a massive fight and he went out and hung out with a bunch of guys and I went out for a long drive but he thinks I was cheating on him?
I got drunk after with my roommates and they’ve been telling me that I talk too much about my feelings to my boyfriend and that I’m getting too attached and I should give him space to know my worth and if he doesn’t come back then I have no worth in his life.
In his defence I feel a lot. Like if some small thing he says it just makes me feel really really bad and I try to bring it up and repeat myself so I don’t feel like that again
What do I do. Like I genuinely do not know. Please someone anyone tell me what I should do?