u/AwkwardEquipment4819

i come from a pretty conservative setting and i cant really change anything. I am 19f who's a dancer and i have to attend 3-4 events every month. Everytime i have to attend, my periods are due. Firstly my family doesn't allow me to perform on periods, secondly i myself dont like to perform as well cus its so fucking painful and irritating. I either take tablets if i feel my periods gonna come or keep waiting stressfully. I am so tired of this. I have to attend some event on 6th abd my period hasn't come yet, its so stressful what do i do.

I am 19f, i am very underweight my height is 5'4 and weight 38.9kgs. I have to gain atleast 10-12 kgs to be in the healthy range. I am very stressed in life, not just about my weight but a lot of other things. Idk what to do. I dont have money to afford anything. I used to do yoga everyday (started in feb, continued till april first week) and improved so much, i was 47 on april 1st. But suddenly dropped, recently checked my weight and it shows 38.9. Idk what to do, i used to be about 40-41 before feb. I dont know what to do anymore i feel so stressed, i know i have to start taking yoga classes again but why cant i be normal? I wish i gained weight or became overweight instead of losing everytime. ​i cant even look at myself in the mirror. I have so much of self image issues and trying to improve.

I am sharing my personal experience. I come from a family where my mom struggled a lot for everything in her life, i am 19f and she has been very ambitious. In my childhood she used to force me to do a lot of stuff, tho i hated it as a child, i am grateful she made me learn so much. She is generally very strict, when it comes to my activities and academics, so much so that my aunt uncles try to tone her down. I had a failed a drop year and now i am in some tier 3 college , i joined college in august 2025 and mostly been very sad since then, so much so that i have literally not done anything meaningful. I dont live with my mom anymore, and the people i am surrounded by are absolute useless (my extended family) who are very entitled and make your life hell. As for my friends, they are actually worser than enemies, i am not blaming anyone but i got it smoking and drinking through them. I know it was also my fault, but they coerced me a lot. Although i am trying to cut contact and nend my ways, its very hard since we are all in the same dept same college. Its baffling how i used to be so good at everything, music dance and actually pretty, but now i have quit everything and became an absolute useless person good for nothing and wasted so much. I really feel so bad, i am close to 20 and just did nothing this whole year.