u/Away_Plantain1454

I (f24) am with my boyfriend (m26) for three years. We love each other with all our hearts but i don't think that I am happy in my relationship. Currently we are long distance due to certain circumstances but the efforts required in a relationship is currently non-existent. In this relationship I have to be available 24 7 for him but when i needed him for a little while I felt that I am alone. There was a time when I used to put a lot of effort in the relationship but due to lack of reciprocity I withdrew a lot. He is so emotionally absent when I used to tell him some of the trauma I faced that was one of the reason that i am withdrawing myself from the relationship. If I break up with him I will be slut shammed by his friends. Every time I meet him he gets angry at something or other and then leaves with a foul mood. I may be wrong about this but I think he tries to isolate me from my friends. He once told me that he is trying to change himself as he was very toxic to his ex. For a certain level he has changed but a person can never fully change which is a fact.
Also to add up a fact I am not a very high maintenance when it comes to others as I don't like when others buy me something expensive. But there are small gestures which I like so much and each and every time we meet he always forgets about the little things which I like.