Keeping hate myself
I know this is bad. My next exam starts in 48 hours, and I haven't even started practicing. This semester has been terrible; I haven't developed any good habits, I don't exercise, and I basically just lie in bed scrolling through my phone (even though I've already scrolled to the point of exhaustion).
I usually wake up hating myself, then go back to scrolling through my phone again, I have some group assignments in my classes, take them a little bit more serious than others, even though I use a lot of GPT, feel guilty towards my peers. But for some reason, I can't seem to get going; only thing I can hope now is this semester ends soon.
There are also graduation and job issues, the problem being that I've never known what I want. And I can't plan my life well. I might graduate in one semester, or two. I haven't been paying attention to visa policies either; I think I made a mistake. I only have 4 credits left in my major. Also anxious because I can't find suitable housing for six months…
So many worries but just anxious, not taking any action. Like now, lying in bed posting.
I REALLY HATE myself.