u/Away-Particular-6639

Did i love him? Am i in pain? Yes. i loved him more than anything i admit i still do. I did everything for him and he was the light of my life out of this shithole. We havent been communicating properly and it ended abruptly after he blocked me, no talk, just left like that. I cried every night after he left me but deep down i liked it. I have no idea why im feeling this way, maybe from the pain or the feeling of something precious and something i love is taken away from me. I shouldnt be feeling like this in the first place. A normal partner grieves their lost, i do miss him, im in pain, but i like it. I should crying but im turned on from pain. Am I losing it?