AITA FOR WANTING A DIVORCE IN MY HUSBAND’S “ WORST TIME IN NEED?
I want get into everything here and I just need some outside perspectives. My husband and I met in rehab and even though in recovery that is definitely frowned upon we actually beat the odds and got clean. Now to give a lot of context we wound up leaving rehab with nothing, no money, no home, so we went into a shelter together to try and build our lives back up together but as time went on things were good but he had no ambition to really want to leave that life behind and even though he wasn’t using he still had one foot in that life and one foot out. Constantly getting into fights at every shelter we went to and I made my own mistakes as well I wasn’t perfect but I kept working on my recovery and he kept toying with it. I started a really good treatment for mental health that started to make me see that he was always out for himself I felt like he never considered anyone else’s feelings and definitely not mine until it got to the point where years had gone by and nothing has changed and now’s he’s in a full blown manic episode that’s been heavily induced by substances and I feel like if I stay I’m staying because I feel bad I feel bad and guilty for leaving when he’s in such a bad place but I feel like if I don’t leave then I will wind up drowning with him. But I also love him so much and I want for him to get better but this has been going on for months and I can’t answer the phone with getting awful anxiety and immediately getting angry because our lives have been centered around him for so long. Am o selfish to want a partner that is there for me and cares enough to actually be a partner? I feel so guilty about leaving someone when they’re in such a terrible place but how can I stay without feeling like I’m going to explode. Plus I have the added bonus of him telling me he wouldn’t survive it if I left him so there’s added guilt there. So I save myself or do I go down with the ship so to speak? AITA?