u/Aware_Individual_505

Yesterday I found out I had been diagnosed with bpd(and an episodic mood disorder) without the doctors even telling me anything about it,, I had suspected having it last year but it still feels so weird, it feels as if it's too serious of a label for someone like me? I know a few words on a piece on paper are worth nothing since the symptoms have always been there either way but this newfound knowledge is making me feel so lost, I don't want to have this shit, I don't believe them at all