u/Aware-Buffalo-9309

Long story short - I have had terrible romantic relationships, I have realized I am not affectionate and always end up leaving a guy after a maximum of 3 months in the name of "he is not acting right", the first red flag i see i run away, sometimes i feel like that's wrong but then i see people with bad boyfriends and feel like i am not that wrong. Recently, i met this guy and it was amazing, I had not liked someone in a long time, but with him things felt really good, but being myself I ended things randomly one day because he wasn't acting according to my standards, now i miss him. I do have a fuckload of childhood trauma that might be causing these issues but man i just want a chill love life not being in this angry mode constantly looking for reasons to leave, i am missing that guy so much but so scared to reach out because of how i acted.