(Putting it as NSFW just to be safe lol)
To keep it short and simple, like the title says I'm scared I'm falling back into my old habits with sh. Back in 2021 and until about 2023/2024 (I believe) I used to cut a lot, but I stopped and stayed clean for about two years. I was really proud of myself, but lately I've been going through a really stressfull time which has caused me to relapse multiple times. Not nearly as often as I used to, but I've noticed I'm craving it a lot more than when I was clean.
I'm really scared I'll start like I did years ago during my "peak", because it's almost like I can't control it when the craving get's too much. I despise the scars so much and I don't want more of them. I feel a sort of disgust when I see my legs and I can't wear short dresses or shorts anymore, I don't want to wear a bathing suit either because of the scars. It doesn't help that I have very sensitive skin that does scar easily...
I was hoping someone had any tips I could try to maybe distract myself from it when I want to hurt myself.