At a loss with binders and looking flat.
‼️TW for talks of dysphoria and body image!!
Hi, this is my first time posting in this subreddit. I really just need to yell into a crowd of other people who understand me and what I'm dealing with.
I have a very large chest and unfortunately, most (if not all) binders don't fit me or don't flatten me enough to satisfy. I'm currently wearing a second binder that I had ordered since the first one was too big. This one seems to fit okay but I still have that bump from the side. It doesn't look natural and no matter how I push them around under my binder, they just won't sit right. Either I'm spilling out from the top or the sides or just everywhere.
I'm at a total loss. I feel like my only option for a flat chest is top surgery, but I can't afford that and I'm not on health insurance. I'm sitting on my bed typing this and trying my best not to cry. All I want is a flat chest. I've been on T for almost 4 months now and I'm satisfied with my face, but it's my chest that always gets me misgendered.
I apologize if this sounds all over the place. I'm feeling a lot of emotions right now, mostly frustration and defeat. I don't need advice, I just wanted to share with people who might get me. Thank you.