I feel like loosing all my confidence while riding this green mare.
For context: She is under saddle since winter, I ride her since february, once a week. This was taken two weeks ago. I am the only one who rides her, the other people rode her once and then never again. But idk, I kinda like her. She is 7 years old and has never been under a rider before. Walking and trotting is just fine, she will go like a cool dressage horse (in a martingale), but when ist comes to canter... Yeah No.
But pls, before you judge, I don't know if i could handle harsh critique at the moment. I'm "just a lesson kid" and I'm into horses since 9 years (I'm 18), riding twice a week. In the Arena, dreassage, jumping, outside trough woods and fields, with a saddle, without stirrups, with a pad, bareback. I thought that I woukd be bomb-proof and I am, maybe I was, this kind of person who loved to ride the "complicated" horses, which where just not understood enough. The bucking Ponys, an abused young mare, the barn assholes, everything. And they have been great. They would go round and collected and forward and I thought that I could ride.
But now? Not a single collected canter stride. Close calls to fall off at least twice every lesson.
But I don't want to give her up. She has so much potential, she is flexible, backhand turns, side passages, she is brave in the field and did I mention her fancy trott? And I saw her growing up since she was a foal at the barn we are.
What so you think? Should i feel like the shitty Rider as I see myself on this videos? (Yes, there are plenty more of them.)
(English is not my motherlanguage)