My dreams are being used against me
I didn't know AP classes existed until the end of 10th grade i got into the American diploma last year in October and it took 5 months to finish the SAT curriculum and then 2 months of slacking
For context I'm homeschooled because going to a school would be super expensive for I'm lower income so the only thing i have to do to get into a college here is get a good SAT and a good ACT 2
Mom takes everything else as just talk or useless i want to take APs to get into a top school but i already ran out of time even if i took like 10 APs in one year not only would it be really hard but i would have to study it before we pay for the fees
Cuz we don't pay until we are fully sure we're gonna get a high score
I only have 5 months until my SAT and scores now are awful like 1120 awful
All i want to do in the next year so 2 summers and 1 academic year is to get a scholarship ship to a top school to honour my grandpa
I don't want to break to him that that scholorship is impossible
Sure i may not be able to go to a top school but i at least want to go to a school that's higher than Cairo university and also get a scholarship since i would die from the debt
I asked my mom for advice but what she does is just yell at me for wanting these dreams and every time I'dess up something she'd bring them up and say this how you'll accomplish your dreams
And to top it off i need to pay these ridiculous AP fees from some freelancing or anything since mom and dad won't help even if i show them i get 5s on old exams i got off the internet
I also don't know if i should be grinding a language right now to go to a top asian university or not
Every one is expecting so much from me and i can't handle it anymore