Struggling with consistency
Assalamu alaykum,
I am struggling with doing more Ibadah it’s making me guilty I just don’t know where to start. I have no motivation. My goals are to read my adhkar in the morning and evening, read some amount of Quran, pray tahajud at least once a week, and start listening to some series of lectures. I used to do some of these things but I severely lack motivation and struggle with consistency. Esp with reading Quran. It’s my biggest struggle and issue. I just can’t. I’ve tried even reading only five pages a day, but then I got my period and never went back. I’m ashamed. I am enrolled in self paced Quran classes that occurs once a week but I am starting to dread it because I am struggling with memorising the current surahs im in. I will say, I usually do a lot better when I am surrounded by other people who are doing khair but ever since I moved from my family, I’ve struggled with upkeeping these small actions. I’m an introvert and will not make friends (I have social anxiety and have been looking into therapy).
I want to feel motivated and look forward to performing these deeds for Allah SWT. I do maintain my fardh with prayers, fasting, etc