u/AssistantUpstairs598

idk why i feel like this around my mom, everytime she talks to me or call me i always feel this rage that i don't know how to make it dissapear. But i have to say that she is a VERY sensitive person. When i was a child, she used to get mad at me for not chewing my food faster or getting bad grades, and from around 4 years old to the second grade, she would lock me in the bathroom if she felt offended, and call me animal names like dog or pig. At first i thought it was normal childhood, but when i told my friends about, they told me it was weird. Now i'm 15, and i've basically became the worst version of what my mom wanted me to be, idk why but i lack empathy sometimes. I know she loves me, but she can't control her emotions at all. She would yell at me and hit me when i was a kid for getting bad grades, and now she just throws around stuff because i said "that the latest game on steam is cheap", and she thinks that i'm gonna get addicted to gaming and just fully yell at me in front of my aunt. And when i yelled back, she acts all offended and victimized. I gave her everything, getting a combined score of 95.20 aka an A+, getting into the top school without her having to pay anything, and she still thinks that i'm a bitch. She loves me yes, but i still feel so much toward her. Any help?