u/Asleep-Ask9474

I cant help but feel jealous. I really love my sister and Im happy for her. But its so hard to see that she already has a boyfriend before me when Im 5 years older than her and I have never even kissed a boy. How can I make myself better and change my perspective? Im tired of feeling jaelous because this feeling consumes me. The fact that I have 0 friends makes it really bad, Im very lonely and I dont know how to live with it. This is something I cannot tell het because it will affect our relationship.