Girlfriend wants time for herself
Me (M22) Her (F22)
Me and my girl are over two years in the relationship. I know it's normal if things change and be different to what it used to from the start. I believe that's how every relationship is, it needs persistence and dedication to choose your partner over and over again. I have that persistence, I totally devoted myself for her because of my love for her. I managed to quit drinking, quit smoking and vaping, and even isolated myself to prove and remain loyal to her.
Last night she said she wants to have time for herself. I was sensing her repulsive attitude towards me for over a month now and her wanting that decision wasn't a surprise, but still it's painful knowing that it looks like one sided ( i wanted to be close to her but she wants the opposite.)
Her reason is that she's busy and overwhelmed by everything lately esp after her father's death anniversary last Apr 29 and on job training, she's a 4th year student (she even drinks every single day without telling me from Apr 29 to May 2, and I was the one who quits drinking for her), she said she wants to be alone for a while. I agreed as I have no other choice, but now I feel completely alone, the one i prioritized the most don't want to talk to me. I don't know who to talk to.
I feel hurt since I was treated unfairly, she apologized as I was the only one who keeps initiating and is keeping the fire burning for a while. I don't know if all the efforts I've done in the past two years will just come to nothing, I love that girl so much that I want her to be my wife.
She'll message me after a while once she's okay. Idk when but my mind wants to detach to avoid being in pain.
Also I've visited her 3 times for the past year. But for now we're ldr again.
I'd love to hear your insights.