As of now it is Chhinamasta mata .
I mean , I dunno any deity who could be worse offended in this regards consisting her strictness and love of celibacy.
To be clear , I don't worship her . I'm just not qualified and stick to Rama ,Sita and Hanuman, nor am I interested in involving myself in potentially dangerous spiritual practices , especially not ones involving fierce deities ( even versions of the ones I worship ) or celibacy ( sex is my weakness . I can control myself , but to an extent only )
It's come to the point where I can't enjoy sexual activity without fear or begging for forgiveness and praying to my own deities to convey my apologies . even trips to the bathroom become a worrisome affair .
Similarly I really don't want to create a Karmic bold with the godess through my prayers for forgiveness
I know this is a bit embarrassing. But I'm sure I'm not the only one with this problem