me, my mom and sister were supposed to get something to eat at a fast food spot, so we pulled into the driveway to order, and suddenly they're telling me i have to be the one to order everything and i immediately begin panicking and tell them that I'm not hungry anymore and they can order for themselves, but then I'm suddenly getting screamed at and my mom just drives off.
my sister said something like, "why didn't you just order?" and I told her that I can't because it's too stressful, and she kept insisting that I was being dramatic, so I told her, again, "I have anxiety, I can't do it." and she said that, "nobody cares that you have anxiety." and honestly, it really hurt being told that. it's not even the first time she's berated me for having social anxiety. it's becoming more common recently, and it feels like she's doing it on purpose to hurt me (or thinks it's embarrassing to be around).
sorry if my grammar is crap, I'm sobbing in my room rn because I realize I can't even confide in my sister and she's just like everyone else in my family. I genuinely wish I would just disappear. it's enough having really bad anxiety, but a family that treats you like crap sucks. it makes it feel like I'm a failure and they're taking their anger out on me since I'm so sensitive. I hate my life so much. sorry