u/Aromatic_Fly9248

So I was diagnosed with CPTSD by my therapist, and I also still live with my parents (and my husband, and two kids) but am being mentally abused by them still, but my two siblings aren't being abused by my parents at all, and I wonder all of the time why is it only me?

My daughter even pointed it out to me the other day, and I tried as hard as I could not to cry, but I couldn't hold in the tears, so she felt like a horrible person, so I tried to reassure her that it wasn't her fault, that she wasn't doing it. I just don't know how much more I can take of this.

So my daughter has played as goalie, and normal lacrosse, and we've had a person even come over and train with her. So we have all of the gear, as in we bought sticks for all of us, and we have a bounce-back board, and lacrosse goal. And there's this woman's league that just plays games once a week in the summer. Well I really want to sign up for it, but I've never officially played lacrosse, and I don't know if the people will be upset having me on their team, or really if I'll be good enough. So I was just wondering your guy's opinion on what I should do.