u/Aromatic_Courage_172

So i’ve made some mistakes 18 years ago, as am 18 year old, and it seems like I’ve been acting the part of someone who is in eternal debt to my partner. I cheated when we were young and despite he asking over and over, couldnt bring myself to tell all that had happened until years later. Once i told him everything, he told me that he had cheated too, later, when we were almost living together, then when our daughter was already born and lied about giving car rides and deleting proof several times to a woman he was attracted to. The rides made me want to end things, because everything else was over 10 years ago, but this was recent. I couldnt ask for a time out because of our daughter, who was 10 at the time, but now something came up that i really messed up - I forgot to take her to a medical exam and almost didn’t catch an important health issue of hers - he took her, being a great dad as always and now i feel só guilty over this, as I did with my teenage cheating. I feel like I can’t live with guilt and pain anymore, even tough he cheated too, he told me it was because I cheated first and it was all my fault. Sorry for the crazy rant but the thing is: I feel guilty, numb, sad, almost cant function and don’t know what to do, specially with our daughter going through medical treatment right now, which means she cant be stressed.