(Dad 25, mother 23, daughter 4 in Sep)
So today marks almost two years without seeing or hearing from my daughter. Her mother (Alexis) and I broke up and shorty after she stated that I do not need to be in my daughter’s life. I visited as much as I could until I had a new girlfriend and it changed.
I had to go thru her grandparents for a solid two months of them saying I need to provide, which I did gladly. I brought them what I was able to at the time, ($250-$350). they promised I would see her and that never came, felt like extortion.
Ive been vary depressed lately and ofc try to hide it from everyone around me but deep down it’s eating away at me to the point I don’t feel motivated or happy at all. I think my current girlfriend has been noticing and I brush it off. we have had our ups and downs but vary secure and stable I say forever.
Main problem is since writing this for about 3 days I feel numb, don’t know what to do to see my daughter especially with the financial burden of going to court. I almost got evicted last week, I’m paycheck to paycheck, families not truly there for me like they say they are and a whole lot more I don’t want to get into. long story short I’ve been feeling like there’s only one way to stop the pain. I almost called the cops right now because my thoughts are going crazy and truly don’t know how to bring it up to anyone because as men we are suppose to stay strong and keep going and be brave and all this bs. Especially in today’s society and everything going on!
Please if anyone would just help out and let me know if someone Is going thru the same thing because I’m at my last breath with being strong even though I have a lot of people relying and counting on me especially my daughter. I truly don’t know what to do.
Thank you.