I feel like i have no will
Like will itself not just willpower. I dont have wants. I feel like my subconscious or irrational mind is the only one with will and im like just a puppet to them
My life is atrophied and boring, i just do the same thing everyday. I thought it was because im a NEET so im now going to a program every weekday and applying to a school and calling friends everyday and going out NOPE DOESNT WORK SHIT FOR ME MAN. I FEEL THE SAME.
And all that above took the last willpower i had. I set them up a while ago and now im just coasting on what i set up.
I do the same things everydsy because i just want to huh. So the solution is not do what you want to do. A shame i had to learn that now and not earlier since i feel trapped by these soul deep unmovable beliefs and im just too tired
Sorry thats all i have to say its only a vent post pretty much