After 10+ years, my husband doesn't desire me at all anymore. We were very hot and passionate for the first few years, and then both of us became depressed during Covid and stopped having sex pretty much altogether.
After my libido returned, I waited to see when my partner's would return too. Unfortunately when it did, he no longer seemed to be interested in me. He is fine with finding someone to play with on Grindr (alone or sometimes including me) but he doesn't want to play alone with me at all. He would rather watch porn by himself than spend time with me.
I can't explain how much it hurts me to not be desired by my partner anymore. It affects my self esteem and self worth, and I worry he is going to find someone else to leave me for. He still says he loves me, but I can't even excite him sexually. He has ED with me, but with someone else he is rock hard and ready to go.
I don't even know what to do at this point. I'm mostly just venting but I wouldn't turn down any advice, I feel very alone ❤️