being sexual assaulted didn’t really affect me so it makes me feel like i don’t deserve to say it happened to me
ive been assaulted twice, once when i was 15 my boyfriend at the time forced me to finish a handjob through tears despite the fact i said i just wanted to listen to music together. the second was a few months ago my first time in a club i was really drunk and abandoned by the group i was with and ended up alone w a guy who tried to push my head down and kept groping me. on occasion when i think about both too long i get upset and i hate that it happened but overall i don’t know if id say it affected me that much, i still get around and i still go party but sometimes it makes me feel guilty. i’ve had friends tell me they think the first instance is rape but i even barely feel worthy of calling it sexual assault i feel like i don’t deserve to say that happened to me bc it didn’t hurt me like it hurt others. idk if anyone else has similar experiences but i just needed to vent and some support thank you