u/Arisveah

weve been questioning for 5ish years, but only decided to accept it about 2 weeks ago, so keep in mind i could be wrong and this could all be irrelevant. who knows. weve not had a little front in a long time, which is part of why i avoided investigating switches for so long- it just didnt feel like it mattered, bc when i wasnt me i was usually more mature and more cautious, so there wasnt any danger to it? plus, we've had a lot of different external names and i knew that if we were right, im not the original, which is a whole thing im working on accepting. but last night, i found out about a fictive we have(?) that is a child, which is intimidating. the body and i are 17, but i was formed for intervening with our little brothers abuse, so like i know how to protect physical children, but what do i have to do to protect her when she sees through my eyes? theres so many levels of Difference between what i need to protect her from versus what i needed to protect our brothers from. we dont have good communication, so i cant be sure shes not here. shes from a gorey source material, but that doesnt feel like justification for potentially retraumatizing her and i am deeply petrified by that possibility. thats hell on earth. i wont do that. ive heard that often littles get protectors, but i cant communicate very well with the others and nobody has outright claimed that role in our notes app, so is that me? are we on pg13, no blood no gore, child friendly conversations only until system communication improves? im willing to do that, obviously, but is there a right way to do this? im a medical lab student, we work with some substances i dont want a kid to see in lab and lecture. what do i do about that? how do i be a good and responsible figure for a little?