Okay for some background. I’m a trans woman, depression and all the fun stuff. And u fortunately I have relapsed into self harm. Yes I know it’s bad and I am working with my therapist and friends to work on this. I am not active suicidal and I have gotten better about not cutting. But holy shit life has been stressful lately. Between personal stuff, work, and an injury. I basically can’t to anything to relax with my dominant hand in a brace and needing to prevent movement. Even now after playing Tomodachi life and drawing in it. I couldn’t use my had for Ten minutes.and the darker thought process kinda took over. The usual self harm thought but a little more hard on myself. Then the video I was watching to distract myself was going on about new child safe button cell batteries. And my immediate thought was”wait that’s really all it takes? I have a pack somewhere will be painful and if I live I have a good excuse because I use my mouth to hold things a lot. Wonder where I put that pack. I have some others” and my brain snapped out of it when I looked at the scars on my arm and my chat with my friend that’s been helping me a lot. I am fine as of now because of the coping mechanisms my therapist and I have worked on. And I will be sharing my post with him tomorrow.
Thank you for your time and thoughts 💜