I don’t want to go into too much detail, but the emotional, sexual, and psychological torture I experienced has forever changed my perspective on life as a whole. I always wonder why he chose me to hurt. Why me? Of all people, how come I wasn’t treated the same? What made me so different?
He even admitted to me that he took his anger out on me, but why? I see how he cares for and respects his friends, and even how he respects his female friends. I can also see how he treats his new girlfriend way better than he ever treated me. I can tell the love and care he has for her, and I’m just left wondering why I was treated so horribly and made to feel like an embarrassment.
Does anyone else feel like this? Like everyone thinks the person who hurt you is amazing and nice, but all they ever showed you was something completely different? I just want to know why I was the punching bag.