TW mentions of mental health, sui**de
So for background I work at a hospital in a specialized clinic, this clinic is ran primarily by four people which makes the situation even more complicated due to the small amount of staff. I (22f) have struggled with my mental health from a very young age as does most of my family. My coworker (40m) is aware of this as we’ve had many conversations about it, I’ve had to take time off for therapy and such. There are certain topics that are very sensitive to me as my uncle committed when I was younger and I am a 2x survivor.
While I take my medication and go to therapy, there are still days I struggle. We work with some very heavy cases and lose a lot of patients. It takes a toll on you, especially when you’re already burned out.
This day I had only gotten three hours of sleep, I was tired but I was working the best I could and smiling and acting like normal. I’m typically outwardly very cheery and smiling around our patients because they’re going through a lot.
My coworker made a lot of jokes telling me to “wake up” and whatnot. I gave him the benefit of the doubt and thought maybe he just genuinely thought I was tired when I was in a really bad episode. He tends to make a lot of tone deaf or offensive jokes but I wanted to hope he wouldn’t about that. But then as I was about to leave he joked “Uh oh, I think we need to put *my name* on suic**e watch” and started laughing while I was getting my stuff together.
I didn’t say anything but him and my other coworker laughed at me as I left. I cried when I got home and was really upset thinking about how for somebody that joke could have been their last straw, if I didn’t have a good support system the way I used to be it could have been mine.
So WIBTAH for reporting him or bringing this up? I cry when I get angry and worry they’ll just laugh again or won’t take me seriously.
***extra information that is probably needed for context
There honestly have been so many problems with this guy that I forgot to bring a couple others up. I’ve worked with him since I was 19, but he makes a lot of sexual jokes about me especially in the last year. I had a lot of health issues and had to get an emergency surgery and lost a ton of weight in the process. I had to buy scrubs three sizes smaller because my others were falling off of me.
He made a ton of comments about me dressing like an “office siren” just because the scrubs now properly fit me and has laughed at me any time I have uncomfortable encounters with patients. I have reported this part of things to our boss and he has done nothing just saying that’s an “us problem”.
I’ve repeatedly talked to him about my discomfort and had to ask him to give me personal space because he’s bad about grabbing my hand, leaning all over me to get things when I’m visibly uncomfortable with it and it a long term relationship.