u/Appropriate_Cow_9163

Im going to my first spiritual development class tomorrow. Ive been dealing with this alone and I barely know what Im doing. Im so tired. I have spirits around me all the time. Its like a buzzing ball of energy near me. I sometimes can see them like they are an invisible veil and then feel the energy. Sometimes I see nothing and start to feel that energy ball. Ive dabbled in communicating and have been able to with some people but I dont know much about protection. Trickster spirits come and tell you lies and break your heart. I dont know whos who but at the start I believed everything. Im going mad and alot of the times I say can everyone please leave and I feel multiple footsteps leaving but sometimes there is a stubborn and persistant one that wont go away. Dont know if its the same one or if there's a few but I have no idea how to get those ones to leave me alone. Ive had many more instances, some too insane for anyone to believe. Who has experience with stubborn and insistant spirits? I feel like they are rude and get angry at them. I tell them they are back of the line when I am able to use this 'gift' properly. Then I think they are probably laughing at me because thats what they want but how can someone not go insane? It does not feel like a gift at this point. Maybe one day. Can anyone atleast relate? I have no one in my life I can talk to about this and I feel like Im going mad.