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ive '18F' known this guy '19M'for YEARS. When we were younger, I liked him alot. But my parents wouldn't let me date him. And then around that time he started to kind of randomly make fun of my homeschooling even though he said he likes me alot.
here's where I feel like an ass, we've recently started talking again after a long time he has been flirting with me, touching me, all that. And I've been kind of doing it back. im kind of awkward and match the person I'm talking to energy. So he says something flirty, I flirt back. kind of. again, im awkward.
and then I realized he probably thinks I want a relationship with him. But I have like this really bad avoidance issue. anytime ive ever been in any sort of relationships, even like friendships, I feel so trapped. its weird and I'm trying to work on it.
but I feel like im leading him on. like I accidentally did it once when I wasnt allowed to date him but he was flirting with me and I kinda flirted back. and then hsd to tell him I couldn't date. Anyway, this is honestly making me really anxious because I feel like an ass.
and also sorry if this story is kind of unclear, im so tired lol.