Any suggestions for IOP or similar program without dual diagnosis?
I struggle severely with anxiety and depression, and have been in and out of therapy for a long time. I had been out of it the last few years and hit a breaking point with my suicidal ideation, so I reached out to a few therapists last week out of desperation. One of them expressed a lot of concern for me and encouraged me to look into inpatient or intensive outpatient options. I went to Eskenazi and did an intake last week, and they signed me up for group + individual therapy and to meet with a NP who can help me get medication. Okay, a start.
I have been to a couple group therapy sessions this week, and so far I've been really underwhelmed and unimpressed. My individual therapy is with a student intern, and I am very skeptical of that being a useful arrangement for me when I have so muxh experience in therapy and know what I like/don't like, and am looking for someone I can really trust and build a rapport with. I also just generally feel pretty invisible there-- for my group session today I had a nurse first send me into a wrong room, which was absolutely mortifying and made me start crying when they all laughed me out of it, and when I was actually in the correct session, I sat weeping and snotting all over myself because there were no tissues in the room. When I went to look for some outside, there were none, and no clearly marked bathrooms for patients-- I had to ask a nurse who was on the phone to point me toward a bathroom just to swipe some snot off myself. Altogether a horrible experience that does not encourage me to keep coming back and being open.
I really need some structured, regular, frequent support, and I don't think I'll get it there. Most IOPs I've seen in the area are dual diagnosis for addiction though, which is not my experience. Any suggestions?