So turning 49 tomorrow. My 40s have been the worst for my romantic life.
Wife left me. Three girlfriends in the next 6 years, each ending in huge disappointment.
I feel like I learn so much each time but I don't get any closer to a real relationship with someone that actually knows me and accepts me.
I used to lie to protect myself. I learned not to. So hard. But I wasn't prepared to then have a woman lie to me the same way.
Karma is devastating.
I was afraid to have kids when I was younger in case I'd mess them up likey parents did me. Now I regret never having them.
But my last girlfriend introduced me to her child and I fell in love with two people. And when she turned out to be a liar (like when I couldn't deny it anymore) I had to leave an innocent child I had so hoped would be a part of my family.
Now I feel too old to date someone with young kids AND too gun shy.
IDK what my 50s have in store but I'm about ready to give up and just enjoy the male friends that have stayed loyal and true through the decades.
I don't blame women in general, I know it's me that picks incompatible partners, but man... How does anybody do it right at this age?