I(28m) was addicted to sex and porn. I have undiagnosed ADHD which didn’t help at all. I started watching porn at 13 and spiralled deep as the years went on. I destroyed my relationship with my ex gf whom I was with for almost 10yrs. I used to watch porn everyday and when i started living on my own it became multiple times a day. This was aided with my weed addiction. The crave for novelty and dopamine ruined me.
As time passed on I ended up finding new kinks after eachother. Voyeurism, exhibitionism, there’s more worse things also. I was spending money on prostitutes all while still being with my ex in our last years together. We broke up cause I was lying to her, cheating on her and disregarding her feelings. I thought I was hiding it well but everything always comes to light.
The addiction ultimately led me to being a bull for couples. I wasn’t into the husband being in the room at all but the fact that I still got his wife made me not complain if he was. It went so far that I was even trying to have girls I knew cheat on their bf or spouses with me(real POS move i know). I was a known scum and didn’t deserve the care from the friends and family I had back then.
I was not even close to being labelled a decent human being. Looking at other women as objects just for my fantasy. Breaking up relationships and taking others wives in front of them were just sick and twisted. I had a domination issue. It has only been 3 months since getting clean and Im glad I quit the addictions(weed & porn) I used to regulate myself. I don’t think about it daily anymore.
Nowadays I’m just asking those I’ve hurted for forgiveness and don’t even feel it needs to be accepted. I just hope I can from this day forward be a better person for my society.