u/Apprehensive-Emu1754

Hi everyone, I am 20yo and i have always ignored the thought of me being trans because of my mental health, but now it has become impossible to ignore. I am already severely ill and getting better as probably puberty enhanced all the symptoms a lot, and thats why the idea of starting HRT freaks me out, plus all the insecureties about my body as is and how i will look in the future. Really I need an advice, the thought is always in my head and i keep dreaming of people telling me to do it.