My narcissistic father
I'm 21F and my father is an alcoholic narcissist.
My mom and I left two years ago and in that time I got engaged and fell pregnant but left that relationship because he was abusive as well. I moved in with my mom but she was struggling financially as it is and we had to go stay with my dad again. So currently my mom, me and my 2 month old baby are living with my dad. My dad is also an alcoholic and suffering end stage alcoholism which doesn't help the situation at all.
We've been living her for about 8 months now he constantly belittles my mom. My mom is a faithful Christian and he constantly mocks God in front of her, calls her a witch, calls himself the devil, says the Bible is a made up story and says Jesus was just an ordinary man. All of this is deeply hurtful to her and also hurts me.
He's also never hungry because he drinks beer all day and refuses to let us go buy food for the house knowing full well that we don't have our own money and have been struggling to get jobs. It's also not like he doesn't have money. He has, a few millions in the bank and instead of letting us buy food (which he claims is too expensive) he instead goes around buying properties and tequila every day.
Im breastfeeding and need to eat often and nutritious foods. I mostly end up eating a slice of bread or biscuits which isn't nutritious but at least it's something.
He's also really disgusting. He never cleans up after himself and his room is full of cigarette ash and dog hair with he just scrapes into a corner. He occasionally cooks but purposely uses a hundred pots and pans which he leaves for my mom or me to clean.
He also has a girlfriend and he calls her every night telling her how he's going to move somewhere one of these days and just leave us on the street. She's also a big issue because she's constantly telling him to get rid of us.
He's also constantly antagonizing us and trying to push us to get angry. We both try to ignore it but it builds up and when we get angry he acts like the victim. Typical narcissist behavior.
He also has a dog and forgets to feed her half the time and never gives her any attention. The poor dog is always asking my mom and I for food and attention, it's so sad. He never takes her for walks or bathes her. In the 8 months we've been here, we've taken the dog for more walks or baths than he ever has.
In all of this, I can understand him not wanting my mom around or not treating her with any respect because they are separated and don't have a good relationship but the fact that he has the same attitude with me hurts alot. I'm his daughter and all I try to do is love him and look past how cruel he can be, but still his biggest wish is to get rid of me. Also with my son whose an innocent little baby, he constantly tells me that he's a problem. It's so hurtful and I'm just glad that my boy is too young to understand what he's saying and won't remember it.
I pray every day that my mom and I can find work and live in our own place together without my dad and I have faith that it will happen soon. It's just really hard at the moment.
I'm so tired of him and I just hope that we get away from him soon because I also don't want my son to grow up with his influence.