[20F]should i break up? again I’m in 2 years relationship
I feel irritated in the relationship by what he says and the way he says it (he is gloomy in this). I don’t know if it is temporary. Every time I think about breaking up I remember a specific moment when he was good to me. I don’t feel that kind of joy in him. When I’m with other people I feel like a volcano of energy, I joke and laugh, and in the relationship I feel like there are constant problems. With my ex it was different and I saw it from the beginning, but at the start I felt it was very good. Now I feel tired of it.
There were various moments when I felt it was time to let go and that we weren't compatible. Sexually, I thought things were good, but it turns out she was too selfish.
I feel bad because I judge him through the situation with housing and money, but it pushes me away from him. When he had a headache I only said I didn’t know what to do. There are situations where I go to the bathroom to reply to friends without any comment from him that I’m on my phone when we see each other. Sometimes I feel like he behaves like a woman.
I already broke up once and I feel the same again. Back then the reason was slightly different but some issues were the same. On the other hand, when I think about breaking up I’m afraid I will meet someone who will treat me badly psychologically. I keep thinking it is temporary and it will pass, that I am selfish and materialistic. Even what I’m writing shows I am a bad person, I don’t know what to do. please give me your opinion you can judge me