I could trade people I "love" for Pringles
I don't know if I've always been like this, but I can't remember being different.
I'm deeply apathetic, I don't feel sadness or happiness, just emptiness.
When people get emotional, I just wonder if they are pretending. It feel unreal.
When I genuinely laugh, I immediately realize that I don't even feel like laughing, I just do it by reflex.
I cherish my friends on the surface, but deep down, I'm not sure I do. I know I wouldn't be affected if they disappear. I have few relatives who have died these last two years, and I never felt any sadness or anything, as if they were strangers, but they were close to me.
I often had crushs that last few minutes, cause I quickly told myself "wait I don't give a sht about this guy"
I tell myself "I like this person" just to realize it's not true the second after. same for hatred, they are people I know I should hate, but I just don't.
I wonder if I ever felt anything genuine
I wonder if someone ever felt anything genuine or if everyone is just pretending.
Is there something wrong with me ?