how you deal with anger without blowing up at others for inconveniences big or small due to years of built up anger from different experiences and learn how to process in a health manner without being consumed with the anger? At times it feels like two people inside me, one telling me why I should not let these things affect me and move forward but another is telling me being angry is protecting me from being hurt… after a while of jumping between both emotions constantly one day I always end up exploding and spiraling into a pit of anger. After I feel crazy and dramatic like I pushed things too far then will proceed to do it again weeks/months later. it almost feels out of body when it happens and I don’t know how to stop that cycle.
Even though don’t want to be consumed by my anger, I can’t stop these emotions from flooding my mental space.