u/Any-Tea6807

I have been married for 14 years to an amazing woman of whom I took advantage of by ignoring her emotional needs. I went through a heavy time of loss losing my father and 2 very close friends in the span of a month. The turmoil within me caused me to grab her closer than ever however it also caused me to be controlling Not letting her spend time with friends and family tho the family portion started much earlier due to bad blood between our families. Its no excuse I know it's still her family. Over time she began to get distant until she just couldnt take it anymore and asked for space which kicked me into an inner reflection of who I was and what kind of man I was. And it made me sick. I hated myself. So I decided to shatter myself and pick up the pieces of the man I wanted to be. Now I can finally look into the mirror and feel proud of who I am. Unfortunately it was too late for our marriage as she told me 3 weeks into her space she wanted a divorce. I was devastated but I also understood. She is currently working on the paperwork and she chose the least destructive divorce, still looking out for me after everything I've done to her. I still love her with everything I have and want to save our marriage but also understand that she is choosing what she feels is right. And Mindy, if you ever see this, I'm so sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry you had to deal with a monster of a husband. I'm sorry it took pushing you away for me to change who and what I am. But I thank you, not just for the memories. Not just for the time. But I thank you for waking me up and making me see that I can be better than I was. I will always love you. And I still think you are the most beautiful woman in the world. I'd give up everything I own, all my dreams to bring you back to me. But I guess what they say is true, if you love her then let her go. So this is my goodbye to the love of my life, my one and only.