First real soul tie🌀🌠🔮
My question is how would I know if the other soul feels the tie? I don’t think I’m manually putting my energy into this, so what does it mean and why is it getting stronger and stronger?! What can I do?
ANY thoughts, feedback etc appreciated 🫶🏼
I met someone one year ago just days after getting out of a 3 year relationship. Immediately he was a toy for me to make myself feel better and my goal was to get him to drunk call me while he was on vacation. I never pushed that onto him (which is important).
He did actually call me. I didn’t answer that one time. Also, we ended up getting close just a month later. I started sleeping over at his house 2-4x a week. I felt numb in general so I thought I felt nothing for him. He confidently and calmly told me he loved me 2-3x and I ignored him.
I got clear on how I felt and I was ready, but it was too late. He went back to college and I moved permanently. I visited him once and we fought about me seeing other people but it also felt so right with him, he was home, he said the same about me.
He came to me when he found out just 3 months later I was SA’d he comforted me and kissed my injuries and licked my bleeding lip. I can trace it back to this exact moment, I couldn’t stop thinking about him.
It’s the most intense feeling in my chest. I thought it was a crush and an infatuation. I could also go days without talking or texting him and out loud call that he would call me at a certain time that night usually after a night out. I NEVER got that feeling wrong, this happened over 10 times. No way I would’ve even known he had gone out it would be a random Monday or Wednesday sometimes.
I feel insane, but I can feel him. When he’s disinterested or excited. I know when he’s distant and when he’s feeling connected. We haven’t talked in months, he says he found someone else but he hasn’t blocked me we just don’t talk.
I dream about him every night, I wake up rolling in pain and moaning his name + please like I’m in pain and he’s hurting me.
I’m not a highly educated spiritual person, but I wonder if anyone has any thoughts, questions, theories behind this…
I want to break the tie but holding onto the rope feels easier than letting go even if it is scarring my hand. I wonder if he feels it too. I wonder if I pop in his head, I have a boyfriend now and I keep this all secret and it doesn’t affect my life in any other way other than anxiety and dreams.