u/Any-Estimate7612

Throughout my childhood my father would often like touch my body (like slapping my ass or squishing my thighs or squeezing my biceps etc.. He wouldn’t touch my like private parts though. I’m a man btw). I repeatedly told him no throughout my childhood but whenever I did he’d get extremely mad and begin to tell me how unfair it was and how he’s taught me so many times but I can’t seem to listen. He also like sometimes like forces me to hug him and like smells my neck and shit. Or like kisses my neck. A few times on the lips. He used to also like sneak into my room at night and sleep next to me after I had moved to a separate room when I was younger (since I knew about sexual violation at a young age and my father was an incredibly volatile man at the time I figure that younger me probably associated that tendency for violence with a possibility for sexual violence as well and thus, I moved rooms. Or at least I think. I don’t remember much.) Only after telling him a billion times (obvious hyperbole) did he finally stop. Is this SA? I feel like I’m making a big deal over nothing even though him touching me makes me feel uncomfortable. I have this tendency to create drama in my life in order to feel like a greater sufferer so I’m not sure if this is an extension of that or if I really was “violated”. And I definitely don’t want to just claim it because that feels disrespectful to people who have actually been violated.