I feel like I’m being constantly rage baited and I can feel myself fume with anger, also over small things. How do I let there words pass through me instead of letting them send me over the edge. I have this anger that need to say “actually I am a good daughter” etc. They don’t listen when I try to explain things calmly so I when I do speak I end up shouting and very emotional. This isn’t good for me and I don’t want to become the anger I grew up with,
They nitpick and comment on everything and expect me to fall into line and follow every command, have no opposing options like I was as a small child.
The problem is I am 25, and I just moved back to help them with bills since they made some bad financial decisions. I’m not scared of them now because they can’t threaten to not give me food, pay school fees etc anymore and them being financially dependent on me changes things. If they want respect, they have to give me respect too and it’s not clicking to them. They believe they don’t need to respect me because I am their child. Why must I give them thousands of my hard earned money every month and on top of that be berated while being expected to stay silent and take it?
Please don’t tell me to leave, I can’t for the next 6 months +, I’ve put a lot of my money into this to save them from getting their house repoed and need to build up my savings to leave again.