u/Anxiousinkling

I decided to censor the word s*x just in case but TW for me talking about neurotypical people s*xualizing us and our behaviors.

Earlier today I saw a post on one of the main autism subreddits that was talking about a TikTok video creeping them out. So, I watched it and honestly the girl in the video acted like me. She talked like me (sort of simple and to the point) and had interests that could be seen as “childish”. The only thing I was confused about was that her boyfriend was holding the phone weird so she looked tiny compared to him. So I commented something like “her boyfriend is being weird but the girl isn’t weird. I act the same way sometimes.” Only for someone else to tell me that I missed the fact it was from an account promoting an only fans. I’m embarrassed for not knowing, but also like really freaked out. I also saw that one person said it was scripted. Why would people intentionally show some of my behaviors and then act like they’re s*xual ? I swear just when I start feeling comfortable being myself people online have to go and ruin it. I just want to have my interests, talk the way I want and not be judged. The fact some see that as attractive is disgusting.

Also I just hate the fact that the girl in the video was pretending. I thought “wow she’s a lot like me.” But nooooo, apparently she’s just a liar and so is her creepy boyfriend. I almost feel like she’s mocking autistic people now that I look back.

I’m sorry for ranting, it just made me upset. It’s silly but I felt sort of betrayed in a way when I read that the whole video was an only fans promotion. I hope that makes sense. Also I’m scared to ever comment on the autism subreddit again because I’m embarrassed.

Hello everyone. I hope you have all been doing good.

A while ago I posted how a guy I work with started texting me out of nowhere on our work messaging app to apologize for leaving to calm down during a busy time. I basically said he’s all good. Then he went off telling me really awful stuff about abuse in his family and demons in his head, so I decided to not respond anymore. I am not able to deal with people like that. I know it’s rude of me, but in the past I got very depressed mentally by being friends with someone like that. Someone willing to dump awful trauma on you instead of a therapist. Apparently my first message was all it takes with this guy because he has not stopped trying to message me since then. Luckily I haven’t seen him in person much, but he has messaged at least 5 times on the app and 2 times on email to try and talk to me. The messages are not threatening, but creepy. He acts like we are best friends and very close. He types like “ hey I really wanted to keep in touch with you this summer! This is my phone number, please text me! I have something to tell you. Here’s pictures of my cats!” Etc. I don’t understand this anymore. I haven’t said a word to him since at least 5 months ago. Also there’s no way to straight up block him on either platform, so I have to at least look at the message before I can delete them.

I know it’s probably obvious by how I’m talking, but I’m not attracted to him whatsoever. I’m a little scared of him if anything. I’m starting to think this might get worse if I don’t answer, but I have no idea how. He is autistic like me, and I’ve heard that men who are autistic can have a hard time with social cues and rejection. I don’t want to destroy him, I just want to be left alone. Saying “leave me alone” is hard for me. I’m also just scared one wrong word might make him angry and dangerous. I feel like a jerk but it’s how I feel. I know the answer is to just tell him no, but I would like some advice about how to say that.